Fear as my Ally

As the drum begins, I invoke the dragon, Harmony. She comes on a pinky mist forming and dissolving then forming and dissolving again. I also invoke my Fear. She stands next to me and I reach out to hold her hand. Come with me today, I ask her. She needs to be felt and I want her to know we are allies. A crocodile comes and a single blue morpho butterfly. These are my allies who came to me recently in the death work I am doing. So I am little surprised they are here. The blue morpho keeps trying to land on Fear but she is having nothing to do with it. She swipes her hands at the intruding butterfly preventing it from landing. This makes me giggle a little. Of course, my Fear is so resistant to transformation. Come. The crocodile has something to show us. We follow as the large reptile waddles in front of us. The butterfly continues to harass Fear. A vision comes. Fear is trappedaat the edge of a spiraling vortex. She is terrified and fighting with all her might to keep from going into the vortex. I jump in and grab her. Holding her tight the vortex takes us. We spiral down, down, down until we are spit out into darkness. The darkness begins to take shape and we are standing at the edge of a river bank. There are large palm trees dotting the landscape. The place feels like Egypt. We are standing on the banks of the Nile from another time. Fear is now frozen. Did something bad happen to us here? Fear manages only the slightest nod. I am guided to wade into the water and let the current take me. I begin to say a prayer. I am sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you. I ask Fear to also repeat those words with me, together. The current pushes me down stream as I float on the surface. A crocodile grabs my foot dragging me down. I do not resist and trust this animal as an ally. As I am being dragged down, I see a small black hole. The crocodile releases me and I swim to the hole pushing myself through it. I land in another dark place. I am still saying the prayer and now ask Fear to put her hands into the sandy bank continuing the prayer. Together we repeat this prayer as I thrust my blue flame sword into the ground turning it a quarter turn to break the energy and to bring in the light. Once this is done like a balloon losing its air all of it blurs and we are all back at the beginning which is also the end.